isn't eating the greatest joy of life?

I'm famous among my friends and relatives for being on diet all the time. I'm actully a greedy creature who's always thinkinhg about food, chocolate, and anything delicious; but avoid eating such things because I used to be very fat, and slimmed down by taking a lot of strenuous exercise and following a crash diet. I succeed in losing a lot of weight, but turned into a freak who's always counting the amount of calories and spending hours at gym burning fats. since eating is the most enjoyable thing in life, I don't really enjoy my life. I just wish I'd be told when I'm going to die. then I'd eat as much food, chocolate, ice cream, and anything delicious as I like during the last week of my life.