isn't eating the greatest joy of life?

I'm famous among my friends and relatives for being on diet all the time. I'm actully a greedy creature who's always thinkinhg about food, chocolate, and anything delicious; but avoid eating such things because I used to be very fat, and slimmed down by taking a lot of strenuous exercise and following a crash diet. I succeed in losing a lot of weight, but turned into a freak who's always counting the amount of calories and spending hours at gym burning fats. since eating is the most enjoyable thing in life, I don't really enjoy my life. I just wish I'd be told when I'm going to die. then I'd eat as much food, chocolate, ice cream, and anything delicious as I like during the last week of my life.

saying goodbye to old-fashioned beliefs

I'm one of those who can't deal with modern technology, the biggest complication ever! I do prefer writing my diary on paper rather than typing it into this artificial, uncomfortable frame. since I'm living in the computer age, I'd better get used to it, so I'm going to write my thoughts, experiences, and feelings here rather than in my beloved small black notebook.